The day began just like any other day. The snooze on the alarm clock was pressed at least 10 times. I honestly wish I had enough push to only press that thing once. But it continues each and everyday. I arrived late to my American Indian Lit class. Our first assignment requires to do Orals, which is a 6 minutes introduction on who you are, where you come from and what you know about Native Americans. I did my Orals last week. I honestly wish I would have set down and thought about all I wanted to say, but I didn’t. However, I was primarily satisfied with what I portrayed to the class about myself.
All these people going here and speaking in front of the class all have different pathways, passions and temperaments. You get the skiddish nervous type, the slow blank stare type, the pristine elite type, the confidence teacher type, and then the passionate airy type. I honestly crave the passionate airy type, there is not enough of these kind of people in the world. Two people went today that really solidified what I have been striving for all my life. Finding those things in life that crash into you and makes you feel something powerful. I always feel a little bit of uneasiness when thinking about whether my decisions are the right ones. But the truth is the decisions are right when you are happy, when you are passionate about what you are doing in life. No matter what happens to me, I will be happy. If I am not I will change it.
This journey I am on is the only thing I am certain of. We are in charge of what we do. I could very well drop what I am doing now and get a degree that means nothing but a high probable chance I will get a job out of college. I could take classes that don’t mean a thing to me, and I’ll get a job just for the paycheck, but that is not who I am. I will not conform to something for money or because society deems it right.
Those out there, I urge you to be who you are. Don’t let anyone or anything dictate what you are passionate about. This world sucks everything us people are destined to be and shoves us into the corner. To the world we are just a number, but we are so much more than that. We are living breathing beings with minds to do great things. No one has control over this journey except yourself. Be good to others, love your life, appreciate what you have, strive to be something more, and avoid those that make you feel inferior to life.
Now that I know what it’s like to have the world at your fingertips, I am never going back. I am the dreamer that still is and always will be the dreamer. I won’t allow myself to feel guilty about being that way anymore.
I’m on top of the world.